Dear Ex-Boyfriend, It’s High Time You Know What Misery You Put Me Through

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Our relationship was perfect; at least I thought it was. We could talk about anything for hours. You told me you’d take care of me until the end of time, but it wasn’t long before I came to know that those were just empty words. You left me when I needed you the most and it’s high time you know the price I’m paying for the things that you did.

I was lost. More than that, I was slipping away from the person I used to be. I wasn’t doing okay. I was getting worse by the day. But you knew that already. I hoped you would notice. I hoped you would pick me up when I couldn’t stand up on my own. But you simply turned your back on me.

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Did it hurt? Did you ever miss me? Did you mourn the loss of me?

I asked myself these questions day and night. I couldn’t face the world. I stayed up nights wondering what went wrong and what could I have done differently. I blamed myself. I kept thinking that I wasn’t good enough for you.

I started suffering from anxiety disorder because of the things you put me through. My mind and body went out of sync. I cried myself to sleep for many nights. I forgot what it was like to eat a healthy meal. I couldn’t understand how people were smiling. I thought I would never be able to come out of this.

I would often feel the anxiety swelling up in my chest. Like there was a lump in my throat that I couldn’t swallow. I would feel paralysed in my own body. Like I couldn’t think and I couldn’t move. I had lost hopes that I would ever be able to live my life normally again.

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My body would ache for no reason. I would have the worst possible anxiety attacks in public. I had become absolutely useless at work. Everything in my life went spiralling down. I kept screaming for you but you didn’t care if I was dead or alive.

Tell me, did you realise the damage you were causing? Did you think, for once, what impact would your actions have on me?

I think not. You acted selfishly and left me to fend for myself. You left me to fend for myself after a million promises saying that you would be there for me. You put me in my misery and left me there. You simply left me to rot.

lonely girl
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Probably one day you will realise how much I gave up for you and how little you did for me. I’m suffering from anxiety because of what you did. For years to come, I will be in doubt of all the choices I make.

But you know, after months, I can say that I’m doing well, extremely well, in fact. Extremely well, without you. I have emerged to be a stronger, wiser, and a kinder person. After you left me in a hell that you created just for me, not only did I survive it, I came to the other side as a winner.

Sincerely,

So Glad I’m Not Yours Anymore.